There were times,
When I felt like a bug living in a gutter.
Days when I have felt worthless. Taking me back
Time spent without you, love that refuses to die
But I am alive…
Never a day comes when I feel happy,
Shining like a rainbow, showing my inborn colours.
Instead, joy gets overshadowed by the dark clouds of memories.
Yes, memories of love and pain.
Memories of despair and desperation…
Sometimes I become dead and lifeless.
I turn into a mindless person.
At night I sit and fill empty pieces of paper
With your thoughts and my misery.
The joy of my life had been you
The peace of my mind had been you
The happiness in me is a reflection of you.
My very soul craves for you.
Still you left me alone…why?
But you will remain a burning star in my life.
Giving delight far away, never coming near.
Your shining nature will keep making me sane and insane
Your lasting impression will create ripples in my tiny heart.
Difficult to erase, yet provoking hard.
Oh my dear beloved, how romantic would have been our story
Had you decided to play a part in it.
But you choose to go away…
I did let you go, I cannot force love.
In this life if we are destined to meet
If we meet, I would love you till my soul parts me
For I have loved you and I always will…
But if you choose otherwise,
Then I will wait for you on the shores where life meets death,
Where the gates of heaven open…
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