Happy New Year
One year before, I have written about me in the About me page in my blog. Now as I am reading it, I am wondering what I have achieved or accomplished in this one year. For some, one year is a significant amount of time. For some, its negligible. I desire in certain circumstances, that time should run fast so that I will get to know the end result. Waiting and impatience grows in me and disrupts my normal thinking process. Sometimes when alone, I sit and sit without talking and doing absolutely nothing. Therefore, when I think about myself, I feel two personalities are hidden within me, one is impatient and frustrated self and another is calm and silent one.
Now the problem in life is that we need both for our survival. While being calm is good but not doing anything will lead to starvation. Working for bread and butter gives you money but it creates pressure, loss of patience in me. While I know that I have to work and remain calm at the same time, implementing it in real life is a tough challenge. I have understood my problem, now I have to find a solution. Answers!!! Getting answers is the toughest part.
Looking back at 2015, what have I gained in career.
- A job and a salary
That’s it. In terms of material growth, I have got this one thing. However, I never have any interest in this. It doesn’t give a sense of fulfillment to me, it doesn’t create a drive in me to do something, it doesn’t excite me.
There are also other things I have known this year and it truly means a lot to me.
- I have a very close circle of friends, they are few but they are FRIENDS IN NEED type. I couldn’t ask for more good friends.
- I have got a family who always supports me and loves me to an extent I couldn’t put those in words in a piece of paper.
- Many people, after achieving something say I thank God for giving such and such things to me. I have always wondered why. But now I do. It’s not just faith, God is very much real. If you try, you can feel him like the air. I have tested His omnipotence many times and He has answered me in some way or the other. He loves me and He has made my life simple in many ways.
- My life is made simple. Keeping aside the turmoil which sometimes happens within me, I have not faced much difficulty from the external world. Somehow it is made simple for me. Somehow help has come. And this is not a coincidence. Whatever is good for me is already arranged for me. I am very much thankful for that.
So you see, these are things which I am really happy about. I have always wanted things like these in my life.
I have also mentioned the philosophical and spiritual side which is inherent in me. I have this urge to read spiritual soul searching books. Reading mythological stories also excites me. Generally I search for the latent meaning in these stories and every story has one. But then there are other times when I want to break free of my so-called quiet self and just go and enjoy by watching kick-ass movies or traveling and partying etc. I am yet to strike a balance and trying to find out what kind of person I am.
So overall, its a year full of mixed happenings, some sweet and some bitter. Some things I didn’t find, some which are already there made me grateful and humble. But the important thing is that I am still here and there is a vast scope of possibilities for me that is beyond imagination. So it’s better to get going and experience the unknown.
Let’s hope to fulfill our hopes in the coming year.
HAPPY NEW YEAR😊.
To You, To All…
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